"BABY DON'T CRY,HOPE YOU GOT YOUR HEAD UP,EVEN THOUGH THE ROAD IS HARD NEVER GIVE UP!

The wife and i use to this person being so vibrant and full of life..

Never a dull moment with this one...

everyone she meet always remember her and her craziness..

Our friendship have been timeless..

we are more like sisters than anything and because of that, i guess i can tell when something is wrong..

>>yeah something was seriously wrong<<

So i guess the distance between she and us came a bit as a surprise, because we were so close...

even when we are miles ways we still close..lol

I start questioning her actions,just a little bit..

I mean she and i hardly ever talk any more

(my thought on that was "what the fuck is going on with her")

The ultimate red flag for me though was her Britney moment..

at this point the wife and i was like now she need "a serious intervention"...

I was like 'no, let her come to us, because something is really wrong and being that we dont know what was going on we didn't want to come off like we are attacking her and cause her to totally shut down'..

but the wife and i knew that or sister was not well...

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Little sis and i was talking Today and yeah she admit that shit was fucked up...

she let out some things that make me want to cyber cut a bitch..

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I would post the convo but i have to respect her privacy

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Baby Sis no matter what is going on right now,know that things will get better...

know that 'YOU' should never change who 'YOU' are to please anyone...

know that they fall in love with 'YOU' so fuck it if they wake up one day and think they can/want to change 'YOU'...

Baby Sis never wake on egg shells for no one...

make them know your foot heavy..

Baby Sis know that we always love you and always have your back and the bond we have is really unbreakable..

Baby Sis, i know at times you feeling low, but pray about it.

(i know, i'm saying this) it works..

Everything that is going on right now believe it or not is just a blue print to make you a stronger person in this little journey call 'LIFE"..

Baby Sis you are always stronger than you give your self credit for...

change is good but sometime 'YOU' need to go back for that old person that is seemingly locked away at this moment...

you know who i am talking about,the girl who never make people bully her or anyone for that matter...

I LOVE YOU BABY SIS AND I PROMISE THAT WILL NEVER CHANGE

2012 UPDATES

Well this is my first blog in a good while..don't know why it took me so long to come back here..

this was ,after all,my little therapy spot...

but hey...

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This is me saying WELCOME BACK ME!!..

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So for the past couple years i have been on a emotional roller coaster. I i must say it have not been such a joyous ride, but a well needed ride non a the less..

where to start..Ok lets see-

i am slowly getting over my daddy issues..lol..

we talked it didn't work cause i was still so angry...i cuss him out it didn't work because i felt like he needed to feel pain..i hated him it didn't work because i hated who i was when i hate so much so i prayed..

with a ol lot of praying i am getting pass that road block.

with a lot of praying i am getting over my M_B issues..what happen between she and i really doesn't anger me as much and i know with me continue to pray and with time i know it will be all gone out my system.

with a ol lot of time i have gotten pass my Ms Smith issues(the memories still tickles) but that is all it does,tickles..i mean i still think about her but its not as crazy as how it once was..you know what i mean..she is a wonderful person and i did love her (still do) but all that craziness is out my system..i can think about her being with him and not get angry..lol..

Its still a little bit too soon to be around her for too long though..

she is my drug and i don't want to have a re-laps..

i know i sound crazy but damn that girl had a hold on me..lol..

this is crazy but so true..

"time really heals"

so i met a great person through out all this craziness,now she have become one of my best friends...she is super..pure and blunt...i love that about her..Love you wifey :) .

you know what is crazy with me and the wife...she is crazy sexy and we have not done the monkey dance..lol..lol. and i am so cool with that..lol..

my brother is getting married to wonderful person(i'm so happy for them both)

my lil anni also got married(really happy for her)

still waiting for my sis to get married to her boo..

i have been with someone that is truly wonderful...

we been together for a while now.. i am happy but still being cautious...

with my past relationships being so crazy it scares me when things going so smooth..

i cant help but wonder when things going to star getting crazy..

but right now i am keeping all negative thought away from me..

we are good together and that is what i am working with.

we both love and respect each other...its great when you find someone where you both are on the same page..

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that was just a little update...will continue try to blog on he reg.

MEK IT TAN DEH-DEH!

A friend of mine met a lovely fellow,they have been dating for a few months now,their relationship is ok but the boyfriend needs to cut ties with his ex woman's family...

Ok so this guy is not from here he is from the states,his ex is originally a Jamaican,this guy helped his ex a lot and in the process he form a close bond with his ex-girlfriend family to a point that even though him and his ex are not together he still have a close relationship with her family..

What i find weird is the fact that the girl is not in contact with her family but he is. I mean this girl wants nothing to do with her family..

i was assuming it was because she was a bitch,but bwoy was i wrong.

it turns out that her family is nothing more that a bunch of parasite who only draw close to this guy to get what they want which shows that they dont like him as a person but for what he can give them..

So him and my friend cam out for the Christmas..

After telling my friend that he will be going my his ex- fam house she agree...i mean he had a place to stay..where he was more that comfortable..i mean him have a place to stay food to eat and his woman...what more should he need...RIGHT?!?!...

But no he had to be courteous and show his face.

as the dude reach the people dem house dem start search up the man things they didnt even wait until my friend leave...the mother did the searching right infrom my friend they going to turn to ma friend and say "DONT TELL HIM SEH MI TEK DIS ENUH...YUH EAR" like what the fuck...she really expect the man woman going to see ppl searching up him shit and not say anything...

mek it was my man...i cuss out the ol a dem rass dem stay too bad man..HELLO!!..you did not give the man any money to buy anything for you so when the hell as the man back turn u going to go through his this...and taking what u wanna take knowing that either way you will be getting something...

No sah!! dah one yah nuh right at all

Only to later fing out that the man laptop missing(a good amount of things missing) but something like a laptop...come on now...and to make matters worse the mother stole the laptop to give her man as a Christmas gift..

I am not saying much about that because i told my friend not to make him go over there because i saw from long time how the people dem stay..

so i was talking to my friend while she was at the criminal dem yard..

Lol!...i said to my friend that mi have up her man cause him holding her hostage..lol..

the next thing i know the dutty muma a ask "she a lesbian"..the she wanna chat to me...

she come one the phone..right away i start talk like a British..lol..

PEOPLE!

right away the woman skin ketch a fire...lol

talking bout

(dutty mumma) "A weh she come from?,yuh talk nice!"

(me with ma British voice) "LOL,thank you!,i'm form England."

(dutty mumma) "A true?!..yuh soun lyke a realy fareign yuh come from"

(my friend in the background) "a lie!"

(dutty mumma) "loud smile*..she seh a lie"

(me) "yeah a lie...i'm not from england..LOL!..let me talk back to my friend"

It is too much to type right now so i will end it right here..lol..

But at the end of the day i blame my friend and her man

because she should not agree for him to go over ther..him and him ex not in anything so fuck her family.

and my friend should tan up pan her two rass foot and seh "no!..yuh naah fuck yuh ex or nuh body in her family so why the fuck you wanna still be up in them...your at my house,stay at my house".

at the end of the day the saying is and will always be true..

THE PAST IS IN THE FUCKING PAST!...MEK IT TAN DEH-DEH!..LOL..

TILL NEXT TIME..

MERRY CHRISTMAS...

i soon type up my mix up..lol..lol..my life i tell you boy..

yolz..lol..bless up yuh self..love you sweetie..lol

Always a pot of chat stew

I forgot my password and i was stressed out..so i have been aways for a little while,the heaviness of the world being on my shoulders really got to me i just had to leave and go back to nature...

the view of the forest was a great stress reliever and the cold breeze just blow my stress away..awww good stuff(i tell you..if it was any colder my piss would freeze)...lol

so before i went on my little vacation i had another weird conversation with someone who got pissed at me for not accepting their friends request..

i am still looking for in in my mailbox being that i delete them from my facebook inbox..

here we go....

Michael sent you a message.   WHATEVER - U DONT NEED TO ASK DUMB AZZ QUESTIONS. EITHER ADD THEM OR NOT. U AINT ALL THAT AND A BAG OF CHIPS. U AINT A SUPERSTAR TO ASK DUMB AZZ QUESTIONS. GET A GRIP- U PEE, CRAP, SNORE, GET A COLD, HAVE STINKY UNDERARMS, FART LIKE ALL THE OTHER HUMANS ON PLANET EARTH !!! GET OVER YOURSELF. AND DONT BOTHER RESPONDING- JUST GET UR ATTITUDE ADJUSTED- BE HUMBLE !!!  

Michael sent you a message.    "GO AWAY LIL GIRL AND KEEP UR STANKY FART AZZ LEGGS CLOSED. U R SO MISEARABLE AND LONELY. UR GOING MESS UP A RELATIONSHIP ANYWAY !" 

Deme Anderson-Hepburn

i am where i need to be...and dont worry about my legs being closed..

you calling me miserable and lonely like i said b4 go look in the fucking mirror..you are one pathetic OLD MAN...getting upset because i didnt add your perverted ass to my page..lol..lol..i hope its your relationship i mess up you fag..fuck you!...

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i could not find all the mail from this person because i blocked and report him as a sex offender on this social network...

But come on now,your going to get your panties in a twist because i refuse to accept your friends request?!?...

This is exactly the reason why i dont do that,if i dont know you i will not accept your request..if you dont know someone i know i will not accept you..i mean i put it in my status all the time...DAMN!

in other news...i am here talking to the one that got away...this person is soo bloody pure...they keep me straight..lol..put me in my place...AT ALL TIMES..i guess i need that every now and then...

i love this person to death man...my bestest buddy in the ol wide worLd...know Dem fi years...and they still can shut me up...lol..with out me ripping their fucking throats out....

i never told them this, but after they got away i always try to find someone like them but never did...been dating a ol bunch of ass holes but can never come close to finding someone like them..

I LOVE YOU D.G

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Anni come back a married woman to rass..lol..not literally...

she come back with a serious relationship...mi happy fi her still dem cute together..

try keep up nuh(babble)

what the hell is wrong with these freaky ass white old men?!?..

don't get me wrong i have nothing against anyone...

i love old white men..

they are soo sweet to us younger "black girls".

i don't know if its out of guilt because they are sorry for what their ancestors did to my people back in the day of slavery..

but what the heck,keep on making up for your guilt i say...

show me how sorry you are..lol..

the most expensive item will prove to me how sorry you are...lol

naah nah on the real...

i love older guys and i love white men...

but its funny i never get them full(always mix with something)...

well not young anyways..lol..

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so i have a friend who dating this older white man...(its like most of my 'friends' was once with some older white man)...

she is getting so annoyed with it..she explaining how she ready to call it a day and cut..lol..

she was like

"omg,D the man way too freaky"..

i was like

"lmfao"...

"D,yuh think i joking ...stop laughing at me man" she said..

boy i would really like to tell you guys all of what is going on with him and her, but the bitch read this and i dont wanna chat her too much...even though i dont think she would care..but i am respecting her privacy..

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On other news...me time..lol..

jeeeezaaas...

my life is so damn unstable..lol..i feel like i am going to go crazy sooner or later...

the amount of shit going i its hard to smile while alla this going but i have to some fass ass people wont ask questions and annoy me more...

i wish i had my girls here...

anni gone leave me and dutty Y_G way too busy(not a bad think skank)

but i miss hanging out with your stupid ass...u bring out the laugh in me..lol..

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You know what is getting to me..

me and Mr leo. like come on damn it its not like you took my virginity (katel..mi nuh like yuh but mi love your music..lol)...

why cant i get over his big head...

i must admit though..it really isnt as strong as it once was...

is my feelings for him dieing..do i want it to die..

I think from reading most of my blog you will gather that i really have a hard time letting go..

emotional changes for me is a big deal..i dont know why..

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I have been pissed off at my man from yesterday...his ass start acting shady..

If it was back in the day i would say fuck it and just do my shit. you know what i mean..but now i realize that i start to care to the point where i start acting rational,you know.

thinking about the situation and shit..

never me!!.

awww boy gone are the days when i had no care in the world and as you slip you slide..

lol..

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ANOTHER WEIRDO...LOL..ITS TOO FUNNY TO KEEP TO MY SELF..LOL

SO THIS ONE IS FROM THIS CHICK THAT ADD ME AGAIN JUST TO FUCK WITH ME...LIKE ON A REAL WHY THE CRAZY PPL FOLLOW ME..

D D_A H

who is this?

Mysz Williams

Miss Material

D D_A H

ok why did you add me..where do we know each other from...what is the reason for you adding me...i have to screen who i accept..i run across a few weirdos on facebook...so what is your reason for adding me?..

Mysz Williams

that is why there is an *ignore* button if u didnt notice it
it's neva to late to use it

D D_A H

lol ...hahha...yeah i notice it but the thing is i saw that u were friends with my man so i accept the request until i realized you are a fire starter..this is y,if u notice u are no longer on my list..hahah..

Mysz Williams

i'd really like to BURST ya bubble RYTE ABOUT NAHHH!!!!!!!!! Really w i wanted to kno who this sad person was ( that was y i added yu )on my hunni wall freakin they self out then after u come like u so important whichin u are TOTALLY NOTTTT....i saw debbie n i remembered u dnt feel gud cuz trust me the last thing am lookin 4 is friends....
u A Freak as we both can see
makin ya sad ass look lame on trevor wall i love i love u stop bein lame dread have some pride!
Ya Man aye??? lol JOKEZZZZZZ
yeah u win he's your man
Future References i am not a fire starter I am The Fire.... Link!

D D_A H

uuummm.. yea.. so
at the end of everything the point is still that... U ADDED me.... u tried to be on my facebook FRIENDs list.. which means...u were looking for a friend..... i pity you..

first of all i leave what i want where i want...why little girl..

he is my man...
second of all..being that he is MY man i can be a freak all the fuck i want...

third of all little cunt...if u dont like what u read or see i can always get your skank ass deleted off his page..lol..

LAME you say..lol..who is lame here..i mean i know i am important but damn you didnt have to go through the trouble to add me so you can view my page...be a good little girl and run along and go play with that ugly alien you call a child..

you dont wanna burst my bubble huh...lol..hahahhaa..
if your going to start arguing with grown folks be prepared to say what you mean and mean what you say..hold nothing back i aint scared to hurt no ones feeling

PS..
PLEASE STOP MAILING ME YOU DUMB ASS LITTLE BITCH..

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THIS IS WHERE SHE GETS REALLY RETARDED..LOL..BUT SEE FOR YOUR SELF READ ON..LOL..

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Mysz Williams

Hahahaha; BITCH I laugh at silly hoes like you! One thing I don't like to do is run on but I'm going to step out of character a bit right now because your ass needs to get set straight because come like you lost. How could you possibly fix your twist up ass mouth, like you is a seizure survivor & call somebody's child ugly? With them "three raggedy-ass musketeers" of yours. Your pussy must had to have been CURSED to reproduce them. I only added you to fuck with you in the first place BITCH, so instead of you sit your lame, bauld ass head down & absorb the attention & be happy that somebody as high classed as me even acknowledge your bum ass! I mean really, it's good to have a high self esteem but your wrongfully conceited because I don't know how much energy Trevon put's in to his dick to fuck you- cause clearly he hit a nerve to make you think that you are somebody WHICH YOU ARE NOT! & you up in church falling out & having the Holy Ghost like something wrong with you; Girl you ain't fooling nobody but yourself, that's damn demons in you bitch! Singing sideways like you so saved, & sanctified! LMAO!! & you all about talking bout ''MY MAN'' ''MY MAN'' like you ain't use . . okay, we all know that you had to pay him so that you could catch a buss, so don't feel to good about your self. I DO NOT WANT YOUR MAN homegirl, & If I did I could be a skummy bitch & take him in front of your face so keep your hot, cummy panties on cause things NEVER dat serious ! ^o) I mean I know your cock-eyed & all but blind eyes could look at me & see that you CAN'T even hold a candle to me.. LOL GIRL GET THE FUCK OUTTA HERE.. I LAUGH AT HOES LIKE YALL! Bout you pity me . . don't pity me SLUT, be envious because I'm living the life that your pathetic ass could only dream off. I mean seriously, I'm so shocked that you sit your grimey lookin ass there & felt superior for a second or two writing that like you ran some shit . . I mean atleast ACT USE.. Come like people don't add you often. & watch your so called ''MAN'' & make sure that he's as head over heels over you as you are over him.. Hahaha! Sad bitches.. Can't use yall for much more than cock blowing you know-but I don't feel sorry for you at all, bitches like you deserve to drink a bottle of bleach . . Nasty ass! Now if you be a GOOD BITCH & don't respond I might donate some of my baby's things to your poor kids, it's them I'm actually sorry for, growing up malnurished, & with a SLUT OF A MOTHER! WOW . . What a life to live !!!!!

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I DONT KNOW WHO OR WHAT SHE TALKING BOUT HERE...KIDS?!?!..ME?!?..WHAT?!?!...BUT ITS FUNNY AS HELL..LOL..CONTINUE READING..LOL

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D D_A H

WOOOOOWWW!!! you are actually even dumber than i thought( which if i told anybody about they would probably say was virtually impossible) DWL....
before i get into anything else though darling... of which kids do you speak??... u see.. u come up on my page looking through pics and getting all nosy, and apparently you are too dumb to realize that i don't have any kids??....
anyway... clearly you are slightly retarded... not to mention delusional so i will not get into that part.( stop hitting those pipes CRACK HOE!!!)
secondly:
SOMEBODY NEEDS A VOCAB REVAMP..... your grammar is terrible dear... with all that "good life" you claim to be living... one would hope that you wold have gone to school... or at least invest in some good English books.

apparently u either know me, or wanna... because i don't know which church you saw me up in singing.,.......... but seriously most of your little message( well.. not little message.,.. your long ass epistle) made not an ounce of sense.. the entire time i was reading it... i was stuck trying to figure out whom on earth you were talking about...

so.. you've been in the bedroom with me and Trevor huh?.. u know exactly what went down??... good for you.... hope you enjoyed yourself.. seems to me like somebody's jealous of my "cummy ass panties" as u say and wants to be all up in them...lol

before i conclude lemme say... whether u added me to fuck with me or needed a friend.... u still added me.. sooooo... umm.. yah!
n don't worry about my self esteem little girlie..... i pride the fact that its high and ridiculous wanna be ghetto ass weave wearing self pitying single mommas like your self cant take that shit from me :D
it would seem that your self esteem needs a little boost or you wouldn't be so intimidated by me( no need to say your not... u would only be contradicting your own actions) :D....


ooh.. and girlie.. i have shoulder length hair.... how am i bald??... did u just start making things up when u ran out out of idiotic rubbish to spit?..... because your mouth has just got to be a trash can!!!!

lets end this/... because, like i said.. CLEARLY you are slightly retarded...... so i'm cockeyed.....{ have you even really looked through my photos??]( but your stupid! i think stupidity beats cockeyed... what do u think??)
damn.... i pitied you before!.. but i pity you even more now though.....
i haven't been to church in a while.. but u brought it to my attention and i think i will go... to pray for you my child.... you deserve it.. its obvious by your appearance that you've had a very very very very very hard life :D

don't beat yourself up.... u are after all not the ugliest person on the planet.. though you probably do rank top five in that respect.....

PEACE PEACE.. love and blessings
chaoi....!!! ♥
DOUBLE KISSES!♥♥

REAL TALK MY ASS..LOL

SO THIS IS A MSG FROM MY MAN EX...LOL..SHE IS SOO TUTE RIGHT..LOL..

"Now look here don't you ever you in your life ever try to diss me because check this out when all said and done you'll never be me honey I'm more woman than you, SO DON'T LET MY NICENESS FOOL YOUR ASS real shit because I ain't that bitch to be fucked with because my bark is wayyyyyy louder than yours....and I'm no where near PATHETIC, I don't have time to play with nobody kids and that includes you.So you better pump your brakes real quick honey trust and believe I don't believe in this debate over no internet because I will come down there to fucking Jamaica or where the fuck you from and mark your ass off the map honey. My toys is wayyy bigger than your and they make very loud sounds....You is was cool at first and you gets mad because you like to go on my shit and get pissed.LIKE I said to him he don't have to ever in his fucking life ever talk to me again because if it wasn't for me he wouldn't even know you so watch it honey before you get your shit shut the fuck down. If you was woman enough you could've been woman to ask me or confront me don't place no shit about me on the fucking internet now how childish is that? Now I could've been a woman Now you remember that you came to me and start talking to me...I never asked you ever in your fucking life to be cool with me, you chose to be cool with me. Now that I stepped on your fucking toes you can't handle it, now we can be two grown ass women about this shit or you just fuck off for real...now that's real talk."

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OK SO HERE IS THE STORY..I STARTED TALKING TO THIS CHICK ON HIS FB PROFILE BECAUSE I REMEMBER WHEN I WAS HANG UP OVER MY EX WHO DIDNT WANT ME..LOL..SO I TOLD HER I UNDERSTAND WHERE SHE COMING FROM I WAS BEING NICE ABOUT THE OL THING YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN...

THEN SHE ADD ME ON FB I ACCEPTED...

SHE TOOK IT TO ANOTHER LEVEL WHEN SHE POSTED SOMETHING ON HER WALL IN REGARDS TO ME AND THE FACT THAT SHE HAD NO RESPECT TO ME AND MY RELATIONSHIP WITH T-BEAR..LOL..

ANY PERSON THAT KNOWS ME KNOW THAT I HAVE TO BE PUSH TO REACT UNLESS I FEEL BORED AND THEN I WILL GIVE TROUBLE BUT NOTHING TO THAT EXTREME...

ITS BEEN OVER THREE YEARS ...SHE AND HIM DIDNT TALK AND AS SOON AS HER ASS GET ON FB AND SAW THAT HE WAS INVOLVED SHE WANNA REMINISCE..

LIKE SERIOUSLY AM I WRONG FOR CALLING HER PATHETIC..

NOPE I REALLY DONT THINK SO.

AND WHATS UP WITH WANTING TO COME IN MY OWN COUNTRY WHERE MI BORN AND GROW AND "POP OFF SON"

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AND THIS WAS MY REPLY...I WASNT RUDE AT ALL I PROMISE..

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real talk my ass...

send threats all you want...and yeah you can take a trip here any time you want sweetie..lol..
i can give you the address if that makes you feel better honey..
just like how u i went on ur page and see shit you came on my page and see shit...
deal with that shit on ur own time and dont mail me...lol..
your toys..nucca please..lmao...lol..lmao...lol..
i write shit where i want... when i want...about who i want...so fuck you dude...and how can u tell me not to do something i already did...it makes no sense..

i dont have time for this back and forth shit...
and "honey" the point is he is with me..you guys are old news...grow the fuck up and get over it...

P.S...now yo ass sound extremely pathetic..
like i said..grow up..

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UNTIL NEXT TIME..LOL..